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ellectrical ([personal profile] ellectrical) wrote2013-04-01 12:35 am

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It's evening outside, and already growing cool enough that someone venturing out onto the lawns might want to bring a sweater or jacket with them.

Elle has neither, but for once doesn't seem to care. She walks across the grass as aimlessly as she did back in Madripoor, with enough speed to suggest she really wants to break out into a run.

But she can't. She can't make herself do it. So she just walks toward the edge of the lake.
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[personal profile] cutting_edgex23 2013-04-01 04:39 am (UTC)(link)
X follows, picking up her pace to match Elle's.

She only stays a step behind for a few seconds.

It makes her uncomfortable, even if she does not know why.

But she does not speak. Not yet.
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[personal profile] cutting_edgex23 2013-04-01 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
X's gaze stays fixed on Elle.

"Yes," she says quietly. "He was made, too. But he did not find anyone better to be."

She falls silent for a second.

"Or to be with."
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[personal profile] cutting_edgex23 2013-04-01 04:53 am (UTC)(link)
X does not take a step nearer, but she keeps watching Elle.

"He wants to be better than Logan."

Beat.

"Because then he will be better. He does not understand."

When she was sixteen, X tried to kill Logan so that she would be better. Would be someone.

She can relate.
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[personal profile] cutting_edgex23 2013-04-01 05:03 am (UTC)(link)
At this X does come a few steps closer, reaching out as if to touch Elle's shoulder.

Carefully.

"He does not know me," she says. "And he does not care."

She looks a little bewildered, but only for a short time.

"I do not think it is the same."

Beat.

"As betrayal."

Is it?
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[personal profile] cutting_edgex23 2013-04-01 05:12 am (UTC)(link)
X is silent for a few moments, fumbling for the right words.

Or at least words that mean what she wants them to. They can be hard to find.

"Sometimes people do. When they care about themselves more. I do not know why."

She isn't built that way, for one.

"But he -- I did not expect him to care. About me. And I did not want him to. It is not -- was not. Relevant."
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[personal profile] cutting_edgex23 2013-04-01 05:21 am (UTC)(link)
"I -- "

X's eyes widen. She hadn't thought about it like that, not at all.

But maybe --

"People were not kind to me. Until I came here."

Her voice picks up speed, a little, picks up some force, too.

"And people are more afraid of him. Because he worked for Osborn. Because he is a dick. And I -- "

Again her words fail her, but she tries.

"I want him to try. I want to know if he can."

(Maybe she wants to know if X-24 through X-50 could have, too.)
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[personal profile] cutting_edgex23 2013-04-01 05:36 am (UTC)(link)
X's shoulders hunch a little.

Now she does look down, and away.






"I know."

Her fingers clench, then relax.

"Next time. I will not -- "

She stops. Starts again.

"I will not let there be a next time."

Beat.

"I will not."
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[personal profile] cutting_edgex23 2013-04-01 05:43 am (UTC)(link)





"I do not want to," X admits finally, voice rough.

But that is not relevant.

(She does not want to know that, either.)
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[personal profile] cutting_edgex23 2013-04-01 05:56 am (UTC)(link)






"I cannot," X says at last, looking down at where the lake joins the shore.

It is easier than looking at anything else.

"It will be me. If he is not -- "

Her fists clench again.

" -- different."

She looks up at last, fierce green gaze fixed on Elle. She's talking a little too fast again.

"I will not let him hurt me. I promise."
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[personal profile] cutting_edgex23 2013-04-01 06:09 am (UTC)(link)






"It will not matter, then," X says after a while.

"What I want."

Beat.

"I have decided."

Her mission parameters are set. That is what matters.

Now.
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[personal profile] cutting_edgex23 2013-04-01 06:17 am (UTC)(link)
X flinches.

Then, not quite reflexively, she drops into Japanese.

It --

Helps.

"[My sensei. But that is all.]"
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[personal profile] cutting_edgex23 2013-04-01 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
"[No.]"

It does not matter if Elle meant Kimura or Dr. Kinney.

The answer, and the emphatic nature of the reply, remain the same.
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[personal profile] cutting_edgex23 2013-04-01 06:29 am (UTC)(link)
X flinches again, though this time she does not look away from Elle.

"No, I -- "

That is really all there is to it.

"No. I do not know. Not -- like that."

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